Moving On

"There is a thin line between love an hate."

I have heard that phrase so many times but never really thought about it until today, with some things going on in my life I understand this phrase. However, to me, I have never felt "hate" towards someone in my life. I know that hate is related to anger and anger is never the true emotion. Anger is always the emotion that shows its true colors but  usually is covering up the true emotion which is hurt/sadness. So this phrase really should say "There is a thin line between love and  hurt/sadness."
Love is a tricky thing isn't it? You can be so in love with someone and then their true colors show and the person you had them built up to be in your mind, and the person you thought they were they are total opposite. Then the hurt comes and  the sadness. And in time you forgive and your heart is mended but there is still a little crack in your heart.
So things are good and  then you get hurt again and again time heals all wounds. But what happens when the hurt comes more and more and more frequently? The little crack in your heart is now big cracks all over your heart until it just crumbles to the floor. Your heart is shattered and everything you hope for this relationship is no more. And so it is time to just count your loss, Ask God for strength to forgive and you move on!
It is so hard to let go of those you love! I know I have been trying to for years now and I am finally able to!! But when you know the relationships are not healthy, built on foundation of deception,  and you know that you are being called to higher ground, you have to Let Go!
Sometimes God allows heartache in your life so that you will run to him and cry out to him! He is the only true comfort there is! He is the only one that can mend your broken heart together and leaving out the pieces that were never meant to be there anyway.
You can always love the people you have to move on from! Thats ok! But until you are strong enough to withstand falling back into old routine of always running back to a place that you were never meant to forever be, distance yourself and cut off all things that remind you of them, of the hurt, of it all!  What hurts the most I think is deception! Being deceived by the ones you love really imprints on your spirit! That will take much longer to heal than the heart does to mend! Learning to trust again is not something you can do! You have to pray to God to heal you and to teach you how to trust! And He will but being patient in the process is the key! It will take time but "out of sight out of mind" works! However "out of sight out of heart" takes longer, but eventually you will find yourself free of the bondage and the lies that blinded you!
Letting Go and reinventing yourself with God as the head inventor, is a hard but yet a liberating task. You learn who you really are, who God created you to be.  You learn that you don't have to fit in! God never created you too! You are your own person and that is a Awesome! You are stronger than you know and you have endless possibilities, if you just believe and trust and allow God to Mold you!
You are a Winner already, you just have to believe in yourself and claim your prize, which is the never ending , all consuming, life giving , sweet, pure, unconditional Love of our Savior!!! Jesus!!
True FREEDOM comes when you finally  learn to Let Go and Move on:) Praise God!