You have to get Sick and Tired of the Tactics of the Enemy!

Seriously!  I am sick and tired of the stupid enemy trying so hard with these darts to get me down! I will not be shaken! I will not be moved!! Something is definitely stirring in the spiritual realm because the enemy  is laying it on thick! Bring it on!! I am so over the stupid mind games and the childish tactics that Yes, I admit use to get me to stumble or get me so down and out, but Praise God I have grown up and No longer will I let it affect me! 

You have to get sick and tired of being sick and tired of the same old fiery darts the enemy will try and use to get to you! You are not who you were, you are a new creation! And the enemy doesn't like that and will try to get you to fall into disbelief, doubt, or fear!

 Just remember you do not have to put up with it! I did for a long time because I did not know that I had the voice of God within to make the enemy stop! You have that voice! You have the power of God within and you can stand up and proudly  say with courage "I AM A CHILD OF THE KING AND I NO LONGER BELONG TO THE DARKNESS THAT USE TO RULE ME!!"

Right before there is a mighty breakthrough or revival in your personal life you will face many battles and some so fierce you wonder if you will make it! I have been in what feels like a non stop battle but I will not be moved! I have not and will not ever again! You have to just keep going day to day. Keep doing what you know to do until you are told by God what to do!

You ARE Victorious! You ARE a Child of the King! You Are Stronger than you know! You ARE Holy and Righteous! You DO deserve to be happy! You DO deserve to have peace! You ARE loved far more than you can ever image! You ARE FORGIVEN!

STAND!!

No matter what comes your way to knock you down, stand!
No matter how difficult the path may be, Stand!
No matter if all hope is gone and you feel nothing is ever going to change, Stand!
No matter if everyone around you tells you to give up, Stand!
No matter if you are full of fear, Stand!
No matter if you have no idea how its all going to work out in the end, Stand!
No matter if facing another day leaves you full of dread, Stand!
No matter if nothing in life is making any sense to you, Stand!
No matter the pain, hurt, shame, untrust, Stand!
And when you are done Standing, Stand longer!
Because in the Standing you are telling this world and the enemy of our souls that you are Not giving up! You are Not going anywhere! You are here to stay and NOTHING that is said, done, or thought will EVER make you lose your stance!
Because you are not just standing..You are Standing on the Word, Promises, Love of God! And you Will Not Be Moved!!
Stand!

Single Parenting

It is so hard to trust God with finances  and your children! Especially being a single parent!! Because you are the sole provider for your child or children and so it falls all on you! So if you need help with your child/childrens needs:  financial, food, clothes, etc....then you feel you are not succeeding at being mom and dad because if you were succeeding at this then you would be able to provide all their needs....and that's where trusting in Jesus to supply all your needs and trusting in Him for your children is so hard!
I think this is because the single mother/father parenting is not how it is meant to be! Children  are suppose to have a mother and father and now in the culture we live in it is almost fashionably correct to be a single parent. This just shows how far far far we have drifted from biblical foundations in our country!
So back to the trusting, the single mother/father  is now a normal thing and since this has thrown the biblical meaning of family off balance it puts all the pressure on the single parent to be the mom and dad and to be the sole provider and the nurturing one. Whereas  before the father was the sole provider and the mother stayed home and was the nurturer and things were balanced out. 
Now the new normal is single parenting,  no matter how we feel about it it is true.  I am a single parent, and so we have to be  both parents and we have to learn how to Trust in God to be the Head of our families however the family may look now.  I think, No I know, that God gives Grace to the single parent and gives them super natural strength and patience to make it through the day everyday! 
No matter how the family looks now, one thing still remains the same! And that is Jesus is the head of the family and the Center of the home!

Continue the Baby Steps!!

I am saved by the grace of God and by so many prayers from loved ones and friends! 10 years ago I was a prostitute on the streets addicted to drugs and oblivious to anything around me. I knew that life would always be this way and was in a deep depression. I just wanted love, to be loved and accepted in the beginning of the madness. I didnt set out to get addicted to drugs. But anyone who is unsure of their true identity and doesn't stand for anything will fall victim to anything that looks like it will give even an ounce of love.  I have seen mighty people fall to their knees and I have seen meek and quite ones rise to take the place of the mighty in the game of life. I have experienced beauty and happiness at what money can buy and never lasted. I have experienced the peace  and freedom of being independent now. I have had dark days or depression and sweet days of love. This walk is a windy road but you can not give up no matter what you have done or where you are currently in life! Each baby step you take in the right direction is one less step you take in the wrong direction! You are so loved if you will just allow yourself to be by Jesus!  If He can save a drug addicted prostitute and completely change my life around to the point people do not  believe where I came from because I am a NEW creation...He can  and He will save you!
Just Believe and Take that first step of Faith!

Give God Your Dreams

Letting go of your dreams so that God can fill you with His can be so hard to do! Because your whole life you had envisioned your life being one way and yet God is taking your life in a whole other direction. Its frustrating I know but the life that God is taking you to is the life you were meant to live,  what you were created for! So letting go is  not the end but a sweet beginning because the moment true surrender and desperation meet is when your destiny comes to be!
Just Believe and have Faith and God will do the rest.

The Devil is out to Break up Marriages!

Before seeking a Divorce from you husband/wife...always remember the grass is NOT always greener on the otherside!  Remember who has been there for you in the hard times, good times, from the start! Be oh so careful what you plant into your childrens heart during this time!
You are not in a place to receive the truth from anyone because you are headstrong! Take it from me being a single parent yes is rewarding but is SO hard at times!! So having someone good to you and treat you good and good to your children is so important and trumps over someone who catches your eye for a moment!
The devil does not play fair and wants marriages to end and will use whatever it takes to drive a wedge between husband and wife! It may come as small whispers in your ears, "friends" telling you to do it, or from a pretty face!!
If you do the divorce out of your own fleshly desires and thinking the grass is greener on the other side..eventually that grass will wither and you will be left alone!
Seek first the direction from Jesus! and not your flesh! Jesus sees all and knows all and that which you try to hide He knows! Trust in Him and give Him the desires of your heart! Jesus is the healer!
Be careful and Be wise! There are little eyes watching:)

Spiritual Gifting

God has given spiritual gifts to everyone for the winning of souls and to bring glory to God. Sadly there are so many that never realize their gifting or deny it because of doubt. There are others that realize it but use  their God given gift for that which is not of God. 

Seek The Lord and he will reveal to you the gifting that is within to be used for God by God within you.

But always remember that it is not about the gifting but about the gifter. Do not ever allow that which was gifted to you to be what you worship and not God. What I mean is do not put your gifting before God and make it all about you and not about God. We were created to always bring Glory to God and not to ourselves!

God will mentor you and the Holy Spirit will guide you to better understand the gifting He has Blessed you with. God alone will help you tune your gifting while he has you in the transition process.

Wait upon The Lord for His appointed time to release you out of the preparation season and into the season of action. If you go ahead of God in your timing, you will be doing all that you do in your own strength and direction and not in the strength and direction of The Lord. You will leave the covering of The Lord.

I did this a few years ago and it ended in disaster and inner wounding that took so long to heal and it has healed but I will never do that again.

Allow God to mold you, teach you, and direct your path in this season and in due time you will be ready to be all that God has created you to be!

Yes It is All Worth It!

You can not allow what others may say to you or about you, cause you at all to lose focus of your calling for Jesus! I have learned that the closer you get to God the more the enemy will fight you to get you to give up. The enemy will try to get you to give up because the power of God that is within you is so powerful that if you begin to comprehend that you are stronger and mightier than anything the enemy does to you then the enemy will lose ground with you. I am not saying that you will not still have battles and have war raged against you, because you will, but you will know you do not have to hide away in fear of the enemy because you are stronger than you have ever been and you know that you know greater is that which is in you then that which is in the world!

So keep on doing whatever you are doing for Christ. Keep on praying and studying His word because you have the enemy running scared! I know that at times you wonder if it is really worth all the turmoil in your life. And I have to say without a doubt Yes it is! The current battle or battles you are in are nothing compared to the Amazing Glory of God that awaits you when you are in your Glory Moment for God. That moment when desperation and surrender collide and the Heavens open up and all you know is "this is exactly what I was created for". It could be ministering on the streets, missionary over seas , or leading worship, etc.. you know in your heart the dream God has given to your spirit about whats to be. So hold on tightly to the dream and on those darker days let that dream be your hope for that day! God will bring forth that dream, in His timing and when He does it will be as if Heaven and Earth met for that moment!

You are My Everything

You are my deliverer,

My Shield, My fortress, My strength, 

My healer, My redeemer, My teacher,

My friend, My hope,  My peace,  My love,

My King, My counselor.

You have healed me.

You rescued me, forgave me, redeemed me, 

and set me on my feet.

You teach me, you hold me, you love me,

you are my everything!

Through it all, everyday, 

I trust you to lead the way,

You are the one that I run to,

When things become crazy 

and I am so confused.

You are the light within me,

That illuminates in the dark so that I can see.

You are the calming force on my raging sea.

I am your daughter,

And you are more than my King,

You are my father who Loves and Believes in me!

Guard Your Heart!

Always guard your heart! I'm learning this in the season that I Am in. You have to guard your heart because out of your heart flows the river of Life! Because what ever is in your heart you will speak! If love is in your heart then the words you speak will be of love. If hate is in your heart then the words you will speak will be of hate. If your heart is still wounded then the words that come out of your mouth will have a victimization under tone and or the words that come out of your mouth will be meant to wound others, cause wounded people wound people. If there is pride in your heart then you will speak words of pride...etc..
So Always Always guard your heart! Even from the shows you watch on t.v.. Because your eyes are the open gate to to your heart.
If someone hurts you with their words, then pray for them! Do not hold a grudge because that grudge will turn into offense and offense is the offspring of hate and hate just covers up the true emotion which is sadness!
God is Love and we are to Love regardless how many times we may get hurt! People are going to hurt you that's a guarantee! It's how you react to that hurt that is important!
Lastly Always Always forgive! If this is hard for you to do then ask God to help you to forgive and He will!

God is FAITHFUL!!

God is so FAITHFUL! Always! through it all HIS LOVE remains!
10 years ago I was a crack addicted prostitute walking the streets to make money for more drugs! I had totally given up on any type of life outside of drugs! I had settled within myself  that this is what life was and will always be! But then God met me one night on the floor of a crack house passed out with others passed out all around me and God woke me up all of a sudden and I begged for a way out! And right there He gave me the courage to leave the place I was and He opened doors for my freedom in Him!
 10 years of love...I now have my own townhouse with my two beautiful girls and have the best job I  I have ever had and I feel such peace and love like I have never had before! The chains are broken and my heart has been mended and I KNOW that I KNOW if God had not met me that night I would not be here today! Surrender and desperation brings forth Life and Freedom!!
He is FAITHFUL!!!

The War of Good and Evil is Upon Us

This missionary stopped by my aunts house the other day just to offer prayer and as she was leaving she said "You have to pray for America!" and as my Aunt told me this I heard in my spirit "Yes Pray for America like you have never prayed before! Because so many are hypnotized by the lies of the enemy that they can not see the truth and the reality of whats going on! Darkness is coming to a degree that has not been seen in this country in many years! Pray!! Travail for the spirit of this land to be led back to God and away from the evil that has been casting blame on the light for way to long! The darkness may be great but Greater Is the King of Kings! The Darker the Day the Brighter His light can shine!"
But what really truly burdens my heart is there are those that will read the truth about what is to come and because it is not all happy and filled with Happy thoughts,  they will turn a deaf ear and stay in their little bubble of False reality! Because they are afraid of the truth if it has to do with evil and darkness. They are the ones that are at greater threat of being overtaken by the enemy because they refuse the instructions and the knowledge of Jesus to protect them!  You just want to shake them and plead with them to listen to the truth or perish! Seriously that is what it all boils down to.
Its like a person in the military going off to war and fighting the front lines and bullets going past them and people falling to the ground all around, but this person never raises the gun because this person is in their little bubble of protection and choosing to ignore the bullets and people dying all around, because to choose to acknowledge the danger would mean to acknowledge the fear within!
Seriously! God is warning us in this time and telling us to prepare for War! The war is real! There are people dying on the left and on the right and all around you. You have to use the weapons that God has given to you to fight this war with the darkness that is all around and going to become stronger in the days to come! The weapons of Love: belt of truth, breastplate of righteousness, shield of faith, stand firmly on the Word, helmet of salvation, and the mighty sword of the spirit! Allow God to be the leader and direct you and Always test the spirits! God will direct your path and will give you the knowledge that you need to face the giants that are ahead and the darkness that is about to be released!
The greater the darkness the mightier the power of REVIVAL and the Mightier the HARVEST!!

I am weird:)

I am weird! I have always been weird and will always be weird:) I will never be what this world sees as "normal" and I will never fit in ever! Because I am not meant to fit in, we are set apart, a chosen people, who does not conform to this world. I tried for so long to fit in and be like other people and I was miserable! The more I tried to fit in the more I became so drawn away from my first love! Because I was saying in other words that the person He created me to be was not good enough and that broke my heart! Because I know now the person he created me to be is exactly who I want to be. So yeah Im weird but Jesus calls me His beloved and thats all that matters to me!!!!

So dare to be different and be who God created you to be no matter what others say!  People are afraid of what they dont understand and so many do not understand sadly the light of Jesus that is within and so they turn that fear into anger and lash out. Show them love and show them kindness through it all and it may take you being kind for years, or just a day,  to this person but eventually if meant to be they will want the peace and freedom that they see in you. This is the open door to show them Jesus! 

You Have to Forgive Yourself

Precious One,

To be free in me but still hold on to the wrongs you did in the past, is a false state of freedom that will never last. You have to forgive yourself so that you can fully receive my forgiveness that is there waiting for you. Then and only then will you know the true resurrection power of the cross. Then you will be truly free from the past that binds you. You are keeping yourself in bondage and not allowing my forgiveness to flow through you. You are unable to receive love from others because you can not receive my love. My love can not be received because you feel that you are unworthy because of all you have done. Oh child that is so untrue! You are and have been forgiven all this time you just have to forgive yourself. Then and only then will you fully be able to receive love from others because then and only then my love, My undying love for you will be received into your heart. Chose love and not pain! Choose to live and not die! Choose freedom and not imprisonment in a prison of your own making! Choose me, for I chose you many years ago on the cross.

-Jesus

Allow me within your heart

Child of mine,

This moment in time when you feel the pain of past regrets, the pain of what you should have done, the pain of what you did do, the pain, the pain that never seems to end. You wake up full of doubt and you are overcome with despair asking yourself what have your done wrong to be feeling like this. You make it through your day with robotic answers of "I'm fine" and "No there is nothing wrong". You put on a smile that is only as deep as your flesh and you just do what you know to do to just survive.
Oh precious child, My Beautiful one, you are so burdened with what was, that you can not see the Blessings I set before you everyday. You are so focused on yesterday's that the love  I have for you today is drowned out. Your strength is all gone for you have been living life without allowing me in. 
Let me be your shelter, Let me be your strength, let me carry the burden that is so heavy on you right now, let me show you the way to live this life abundantly, let me be the one you come to, let me be your friend, let me be the one who dries your tears, let me be the one who replaces fear with hope, let me be the one who holds you when you feel that you are all alone, let me be your hero, let me be the father you have longed for all of your life,  let me be your Jesus.
I promise to never leave you like those that spoke their  love for you have left you, I promise to always be there even when you feel you are unworthy. I promise to never be judgmental even when in your eyes you have fallen so far away. I promise to always always love you no matter what may come and no matter how dark it may seem! I will always be there always!
You just have to give me the chance to show you that I Am true! You have to open up to me and allow me in. The walls you have built around your heart for protection all these years have to come down! Let me help you by healing the hurt of the past and one by one the walls will fall. You have to allow me to love you and not push me away for fear of getting hurt. I would never ever cause you any type of pain unless the pain is from me healing your wounds.
Don't you know that I can erase all the painful memories that plague you're soul. Can't you see that I have created the path before you and protected you all these years because I love you. One word from me and the enemy will flee. But you have to confide in me and trust in me. I know this life is hard, I know the battles seem to never end. But what you can not see through your pain there is healing. You have to trust me and allow me within!
In due season you will look back and be thankful for all  that you have went through , because it was in the darkest times of your life that the light that you possess in me was the brightest!
-Jesus

Winds of Change, Time Has Come!

Child of Mine-
The wind of change is upon you my child. Be sensitive to all I say to your spirit in this transitional season. Letting go of what was, believing in what is about to come forth. winds of change come to catapult you into higher dimensions of my spirit entwined with yous. I have longed for whats about to be to be release upon you into your spirit for so long now. However because of years of preconceived misconceptions you had about me doubt was plaguing your spirit and causing a wall of untrust and unbelief to be built up around your spirit and your spirit was withered.
The time has come to be that  I am able to bring forth all that I have been holding onto for you. For your spirit is no longer withered but ablaze with Truth! All that is about to be released may be overwhelming at first. For you have prayed for such to be for many years. However  do not allow the overwhelming feeling to over take you for I am right there with you as always directing your steps.
When I stand back and watch you speak of my Love, my forgiveness, and you bring forth my Healing to the multitudes. I will be watching with tears of joy running down my face because it brings a father no greater Joy then to see His child in their moment of destiny!
Soon the day will be when you will look around you and you will see harvest of blessings as far as the eye can see. The years of you sowing seeds into my precious ones that you did not boast about and no one knew of the loving kindness you showed. I saw and that is why  I am honored to say to you when you are in your harvest of blessings "Look around you Love, for Great is your reward."
All the dark times you had to endure, you never gave up! You may have gotten lost in this worlds view, but I saw your heart of love for me and for those around you and did not judge by your actions. That is what the saints here in heaven are made of! The perseverance through the hardest times of their lives they did not give up but stood back up and just kept on the path I had set before them over and over!
Your love for others, the pure, nonjudgmental  love, is what this fallen world needs! So many years those around you abused and used that pureness for their advantage but still you never allowed that pain to cause you to stop loving and believing in the goodness of your fellow man! This fallen world needs to see that and hungers for it! I will guide you into the brokenness of this world so that the light of my love will beam through your being into their hearts and they will forever be changed just by being in the presence of me! They will look into your eyes and know that they are looking at a Miracle.
You have been hidden within me for many years now. I have done so in preparation of your spirit to be released into this land and  so that the miracles that are within you will not be tarnished by the pride of man. There are those that wish to harm the great anointing that is within and because of this I have sent angels of protection all around you that will protect you from that which you can not see and they have been doing so for many years. There also are those that see the great anointing within and turn away from you in fear for they do not understand that which they see. Do not allow this to burden your heart for they know not what they do. They are led by their flesh and so the knowledge of spirit has not yet been upon them. But there will come to pass when knowledge I will bestow to them and they will then understand.
The day I release you into the nations the words that will come forth from me through you will be like honey to the spirit of my children and hope will flow forth. Time has come my Child!!

-Jesus

1The Spirit of the Sovereign Lordis on me,

because the Lordhas anointed me

to proclaim good news to the poor.

He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,

to proclaim freedom for the captives

and release from darkness for the prisoners,

2to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor

and the day of vengeance of our God,

to comfort all who mourn,

3and provide for those who grieve in Zion—

to bestow on them a crown of beauty

instead of ashes,

the oil of joy

instead of mourning,

and a garment of praise

instead of a spirit of despair.

They will be called oaks of righteousness,

a planting of the Lord

for the display of his splendor.

4They will rebuild the ancient ruins

and restore the places long devastated;

they will renew the ruined cities

that have been devastated for generations.

5Strangers will shepherd your flocks;

foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.

6And you will be called priests of the Lord,

you will be named ministers of our God.

You will feed on the wealth of nations,

and in their riches you will boast.

7Instead of your shame

you will receive a double portion,

and instead of disgrace

you will rejoice in your inheritance.

And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,

and everlasting joy will be yours.

- Isaiah 61: 1-7

I will wait for you my Love

My Child,

You are my child in whom I have invested so much in because I want you to succeed! You get so discouraged when you try to do things the way you think that they should be done and you push me aside. I wait there patiently waiting for you to once more allow me in, allow me to carry the burden, and allow me to sort through the things that cause you to back away from life in fear. I want to take this from you, in fact I desire to! You have to give it to me and allow me to continue the work within.

I watch as you go on your day doing all  the things that you are to do and I just admire your perseverance in completing each task with your eyes so tired and your body aching from lack of sleep. I watch as you wipe a tear away when you look at the bills that come because you do not know how they will all be met. My heart skips for joy when You pray to me to provide the way and I eagerly assist you in opening doors that no man can shut. 

I watch as you tend to your children and you pray to me over them every night and then you with the ounce of energy you have  left at night, pray to me alone. I hang on to every word but then when it ends so soon I just wait hoping that you will continue this sweet communication with me but you do not. Dont you know how much I love you?! How much I long for us to talk to each other more for longer periods of time. I wait for this moment that never seems to be. Life gets busy is the excuse you always give and I understand that. But if you only knew the peace that you would feel and the joy that  makes no sense will  wash over you when you and I have our time together.
 There is so much I want to share with you, so many untold things that I want to open your eyes too. If you would just come to me and  talk with me! I will make the way! I will be your crying shoulder or if you just need a friend I will be that! I can be whomever you need me to be If you would just give US a chance! I Love you and always will and I will be waiting on you to make the first move and when you do I will be so lovingly there in an instant. You are my love and I am your beloved! I created you to desire communion with me on a daily basis because I know that living in this sinful world you are going to need refreshing and your spirit is going to need to  be strengthened and given the life fuel to go on and to be strong when faced with adversaries and other worldly trials! Thats why you need me and you may not believe this but I need you! I love you, all of you even that which you  try to hide out of shame! I adore everything about you and want nothing more to lavish my love on you!   Just give me a chance! I will wait always and forever I will wait for you my love!

-Jesus