Sometimes

Sometimes you have to fall before you can fly,
You have to cry out before you understand why.
Sometimes you have to let go to move on,
You have to admit weakness to be strong.
Sometimes you have to give up and give in,
To fight the battle to win.
Sometimes you have to face the darkness of fear,
So that you will know that Gods love light is near.
Sometimes you have to admit you were wrong,
So that you are able to heal from the pain you have had for so long.
Sometimes you have to swallow your pride,
So that in offense you do not abide.
Sometimes you have to go with your heart,
Allowing yourself to love and for true love to start.
Believe in yourself, hold on to your dreams,
And Remember in Jesus you can be more than you ever thought you could be!

MP 7/8/14

Love the ones that show no Love

The ones that are full of anger, and fight you off , and keep you at a distance. Are the ones that need love the most. Their anger is really Hurt and their actions are a cry for help. So no matter how many times they try to push you away and no matter how many times their anger gets to you Remember: Jesus Loved you when you were unlovable and so who are we to not show that same love and forgiveness.

Great Awakening is at hand

We are set apart for such a time as this! Do not be dismayed or weary! For the great awakening is at hand. It will not look like the Great Awakenings of the past , for this is different. Times are darkest than ever before so this called for an Awakening like never before seen. Be ready, Be Bold, Do not be discouraged for your hour has come:)

Choose today to Live

This day choose life, choose love, choose to be free from any chains that bind you! Choose to love those that show no love, choose to be brave when you are faced with those giants, choose to let go of what will never be, choose to laugh instead of cry, choose to sing instead of anger, choose to be all the you were created to be. Choose to live and forgive! Choose the one who loved you first! Because He chose you!

The Spiritual Realm is So Very REAL!

The battle between good  and evil is a very real thing. Just because you are a Christian doesn't mean the battle stops. It just means that now instead of just going with your flesh and doing whatever you feel like doing no matter the consequences, you now have Jesus with in and now when the thought or the urge to do something that you know is wrong or is sinful you have a battle between your fleshly desires and now your Godly desires. This battle can be so intense at times that you can physically feel the battle going on. I'm serious. Your flesh and the voice of the enemy can be so strong no matter how long you've been a Christian. Those desires will still arise. But see the spirit of God that now lives within is much stronger than any force of evil.
If you have ever watched any horror movie and I have in my time. You know that the evil comes out in those movies when it is dark and the evil ones on those movies do not like the light. That's because God has always been light. Even if those producers didn't make the evil ones scared of the light on purpose, they have spirits too. And you're spirit is what communicates with God. So they unconsciously made these movies like that. But their spirit knew.
When I was on drugs I would always hide out  in my house during the day when I was high but at night I always came out to party. If I went out during the day I was so paranoid cause I just knew everyone who saw me would know I was on drugs.
The love light of God shines into the darkest of places to bring hope and life in those dark places and to drive out the evil with love.
The spiritual realm is so very real both evil and good. I have personally seen first hand this to be true. But so many run away from this truth and do not want to believe it either because of fear or because they do not want their perfect little bubble of  no evil reality to end. But to understand your enemy is to have knowledge and knowledge is power. I am not saying to go investigate the evil realm at all. But to at the least agree that it is real is knowledge and that God can work with.
It gets me that we can live  in a world with evil doings all around but if we try to tell someone about the spiritual realm good and bad..they turn a deaf ear.
To believe in God you have to believe in the Devil. To believe in God you have to acknowledge the angels and to believe in the Devil you have to acknowledge the demons. I know it's much easier to acknowledge angels than to acknowledge demons and that had alot to do with media and movies..But the difference between movies and reality is Jesus is real and lives within His children and He always wins the battle because He won it for us all them years ago on the cross.
I use to be afraid of the enemy and would back down and give in because I was afraid. What I would see would scare me and I would run so fast. But see that had a lot to do with the confidence of God within me and the power He has given me, given us all as His child. I no longer run away in fear but stand boldly on the fact that God is for me and loves me and the power of God within me is much stronger than any force of darkness that tries to come up against me. That is true for all of us who are children of God!

Stability is Growth

I have never known stability my whole life until recently. I have never known what it means to establish a root system that is secure and will last. As a child I grew up in a home that was full of love, but no stability. My momma tried she really did! But see my dad was in Indiana and she was going to nursing school and being pretty much a single mom to three children herself. My parents had their own battles with addiction that overtook them at times, as it has my brothers and I in later years, but I knew without a shadow of a doubt that my parents loved my brothers and I so dearly! My father came back into picture when I was 8 and the addictions my father and mother had caused them to leave for days and even weeks at a time. So I learned from an early age to not get close to anyone they leave.
See I was in the state of Tennessee custody from 12-15 and in over 30 different facilities and foster homes in those years. So I learned to never get settled in anywhere and get close to anyone cause I could be placed somewhere else the next day, usually by my own misbehaving or running away.
When I came to live in Alabama with my grandmother I made some friendships but it was never hard for me to drop them because that's what I have always known. Then when the drugs started that was perfect for me because I can't tell you anyone's last name's or even real names because we never told anyone. Also when I was on drugs, I like my parents did, left for days at a time and usually ended up all alone walking down streets because I was either left or choose to leave the people I was with.
So being alone never had bothered me much. I feel much more comfortable in the walls of my home. It's what I've always known never get to close to anyone and never let anyone know the real you. It's safe. I am learning how to have relationships that are real and last. I am learning not to run when I feel I'm letting people get to close. So much has changed and been healed for me.
I still have a ways to go. But isn't that what this life is about is being in the process of healing and restoring what was lost so that we can be used to love others and be a light in the darkness.
So if you know someone who is titled as "the loner" don't judge them. They may too just be living what they know, what has grown to be a comfort mechanism wrapped in fear and don't know how to have relationships. I've been there! I know:)
And if you are the one who is learning to have stability and let others get close to you. What you have to do is one step at a time. Ignore the voices of fear and allow your self to be open and vulnerable in a safe place. For me it was at my church during worship. I would just close my eyes and allow God to flow down around me and the tears just fell. This is healing and is Growth. Pray for God to surround you with strong and trustworthy  Christians  so that they can show you what a friend is and teach you how to be one in return. And before you know it you will be a social butterfly with no fear just trust! God will lead you through the healing process. You just have to allow Him.

A Fatherly Hug

Have you ever felt you just wanted someone to just hold you and say "it is all going to be ok" and just by that hug and those words you knew they were right. That fatherly touch of reassurance you are so desperate for!
I'm being real it's in moments of  uncertainty that you're Faith is strengthened and your trust In the Lord is growing.
What I would give to have that fatherly hug  And feel the reassurance and peace flush over me!
So see your not alone! I am right there with you on this walk of Faith!